i have always been submissive, when i was younger, in my teens, i didn't know about BDSM, i just thought i was wierd. i always liked the girls that wore too much makeup and who had "bad reputations" not that any of them were interested in me. my first experience was in my late teens when i went to see a prostitute and asked her to allow me to go down on her and then to slap, pull, and punch my cock and balls. She was surprised that i didn't want her to preform oral on me or to have intercourse with her, but she ended up not only having me eat her pussy but licking her ass as well. She then gave my cock and balls a good working over, i was walking bow-legged when i left. That was in the days before the internet, so i found out that there were others like me by going to adult bookstores and buying the Fem-Dom magazines. my wife is not into the BDSM sceen at all, so now i go to professional Doms for my kink. Believe me i have come a long way since those teen years back in the late 1960s.