I've always had kidnaping fantasies, even before I really understood that they turned me on sexually.... I remember being younger, and looking at the back of a movie box at the video store. There were two kids my age (about ten at the time) tied up with tape gags over their mouths. I stared at them in facination and deep down wanted to be in that situation myself. I used to close myself in my closet and pretend that I was being kept there against my will. I'd sit there for a long time, playing over the situation in my mind..... I also remember wrapping myself up tightly in a blanket (an early attempt at what I now realize to be my interest in mummification) and then I'd climb up on the bed or back in the closet. As time went on, I started having fantasies about being kidnapped and then starting some sort of relationship with my kidnapper. Being frightened, but eventually coming to identify with him. It took awhile before the fantasies became overtly sexual, but they were always there. Now they've moved into fantasies where I'm kidnapped and trained as a slave, used only for the pleasure of whomever has taken me. Being tied in unlimited ways and forced to do things that humiliate me to no end...My initial fantasies also always contained men, but have recently included women as well.....

Indigo...