When a sub thinks her Dom made a mistake.

[lady kisa]

Hi Velocity,
As i was reading this, the feeling that i got was instead of looking at it as the end of your D/s relationship and into Vanilla. To look at it as your Master was giving you another opportunity to submit to his will completely and fully. To show your willingness to submit to him, being willing to experience things that you may not personally enjoy, but do them out of service and devotion. Disobeying a direct and detailed order and not accepting punishment is similar to saying you doubt his abilities and question his ownership of you. I think that going back to basics and working on the foundation of your relationship, is most likely one of the few ways to save your relationship. i do not know you or your Master, but maybe that is what he is thinking as well?

[cocksuckingsub81]

OK, I know this thread is very old, but I felt strongly about this and still wanted to post my thoughts. First of all, I'm so sorry you experienced this. Hopefully, things resolved and you are once again D/s in your relationship. However, what strikes me is that your goal was not truly to go above and beyond. Instead, you questioned your Master's ability to know what you are and are not capable of. He commanded you to make an audio tape that would make him want you desperately. You tried once, and decided you couldn't do it, so you substituted something that was easier for you. Not only did you not do "just" an audio tape, instead of making it sexual, you made it about how much you loved him. Something totally different; Something you wanted to do, not what he wanted you to do.
Then, as others pointed out, you questioned your punishment….