as someone just beginning to explore and live out their submissive side, i have found the blogs on here to be extremely helpful. my Almost-Master asked me to keep a diary, so i began to write to my blog here for Him to read (once He agreed to register and make an account here). Something about the anonymity of my account here, plus the blank screen and keyboard (i type much faster than i write) made it easy for me to put my fears and doubts and desires out there for Him to read. And when He gives me the joy of a reply.. well, it's just more encouragement to keep on going. So try blogging...

And be gentle with yourself. Those defenses didn't just spring up overnight, and they have served you well by keeping you safe up until now. Let them melt away just as gently and slowly.. give yourself permission to disclose as much as feels safe - and then the next time, just a little bit more.

Good luck!