why waste time? i don't meter my feelings, and i don't temper His feelings or actions when He is with me or talking with me, i just let them flow. i follow my feelings and His directions, wherever He leads me. i am a pebble on His beach, and He knows that. and i am willing to accept whatever comes because i do love Him.
yes. love has a beginning and will spark when it will, and has no timetable. the degree of love increases or decreases over time. and He loves me too, because He said so.
of course i do, although i am only just now making friends in the 'lifestyle', as you put it, in this forum. i do not love someone because i need a diversion, or have an empty life.
don't trouble yourself, i have already pulled back a bit until i can be with Him again and talk to Him about it. and nothing i say or do, according to Him, is unwelcome...He has told me that He wants to know every thought, and hear everything i have to say, and it is not hard for Him - if it were, He would tell me, and if He does, of course i will respect it. but if He tells me to not hinder myself in any way, then i won't. i want to please Him and see nothing wrong with that, and He is not the kind of man to keep His wishes unspoken.
thanks very much.