Quote Originally Posted by rachel06 View Post
The last guy I was seeing - my heart is still bruised, but no longer broken - had met a woman, and as they were talking she told him that she found it easy to manipulate men but wished for a man to take control. So of course he told her she was submissive and another woman was converted to the cause.

But it got me thinking, and as I'm corresponding with the drizzle of men who've responded to my various postings, I do find that some are very easy to manipulate. Not that I do it on purpose, it's more like flirting, but it's just easy to tell what they want to hear to bring them back for more. And, in fact, I don't like it. Or rather, I like it but it doesn't make the man attractive to me. I like it when they bring me back for more. And, interestingly, I know when they're doing it, it's not a secret, and I still like it. Maybe I like to be hungry?

Anyway, just a comment.
I was always the same, rachel. Controlling, manipulating - even when it wasn't intentional. (Maybe a by-product of being raised by a Southern mom...man-management is bred into us!)

For myself, I have a very deep need to not be in control. To not be calling the shots, to not be running the show. I was told, in a very short space of time, by two different Doms, that I need to be controlled. They barely knew me, but saw that in me. And when each of them said it, something inside me said "Yes."

I know when He is doing it. But, I need it. I'm incredibly grateful for it. I willingly let go, willingly submit, willingly relinquish control. And in those moments, I am more 'me', more happy, more at peace, than I am in any other aspect of my life.

I like being hungry too.