For me humiliation and excitement are two emotions that often go hand in hand. If i were only humiliated and not excited (or any other positive emotion i sometimes feel when i'm being humiliated) i don't think i'd be interested in humiliating scenes much longer.
As to whether you get to accept what you are and your feelings about it, i don't know of course. But i would think that this conflict will probably always be with you. Maybe you can try to concentrate on the positive emotions you are having, like the excitement you feel or the pride you take in satisfying your Mistress' wishes?