Not sure what your physical type is, but I made a littleface when I read the rest of it....
As for the rest of it, sometimes I curse my submissive side because some of my buttons are so easy to push. For instance, I was dancing with a friend at a club a couple of weeks ago, and he started leading me just slightly roughly, pushing a little bit harder than he really had to. And then I did one of those little moves where you bend down into your knees a little bit, and he put his hand on my shoulder and pushed me down onto my knees, and I had one of those little snap moments where you feel totally powerless... and I was like oh fuck I really don't need the extra strain on my willpower right now.
Mostly, though, I curse other people's sexualities. Things would be easier for me if everyone were poly, bi and switch.![]()