Early Fantasies

[MsUther]

The first fantasy i can remember was about me being raped under a car. Not sure where the under the car thing came from, but i think it was the only possibility i could imagine for being hidden and also a little safe. I was about 11 and fantasised about a stranger comming into my street where he captured me and forced me under the car oposite my house. There he pinned me down, crawled on top of me and raped me. It was an adult.
He wasnt going to hit me or kill me afterwords, because i would tell him i had enjoyed it and would ask him to please do it again.
I dont rememer if i dreamt it first or after. But it was both a reocuring dream and a fantasy.
Another early one was being bent over the hood of a car.

Ooh, i detect a car fixation.

[hawk_fann]

My earliest fantasies of any sort of detail were in the 7th or 8th grade. I remember a recurring fantasy about tying up a female classmate outdoors, staked out in a spread eagle. That was pretty much the fantasy - I think I was still young enough I didn't know what the hell to do with her. I just knew I liked having her tied up. I used to think about this during class, and to my great embarassment would develop a raging hard on. I knew at an earlier age that there was something about helplessness that turned me on - when I would see women on t.v. or comic books getting tied up, it made me have that "funny feeling" way down inside. The funny feeling hasn't changed much over the years, but the fantasies are a lot more textured.

[Rosanna]

good posts here!

it's difficult to remember, some early fascination were stories of prisoners in castles, in the middle ages

suffering captives like in Robin Hood stories

when dungeon still meant dungeon, not mostly SM play room

[hawk_fann]

I remember the dungeones you are talking about, Rosanna. I remember them primarily from the old b&w monster movies. I was particularly fascinated by the rack, a fascination that stayed with me over the years.

[gagged_Louise]

when dungeon still meant dungeon, not mostly SM play room

It's clear you don't belong to the PC gaming community, for 'round twenty years, the dungeon has been the closed circle of folks into roleplaying, at a convention or online.

[Rosanna]

very true and well spotted gagged Louise, I don't know anything about computer role play games

yes hawk fann watching historical films about medieval times can be delightful, and what's a medieval film without a torture scene?

so is visiting old castles, if the castle is still in good shape, at times there even is a subterranean chamber to admire, and I'm not talking about the wine cellar

if it's merely a ruin you can still let your imagination wander...

[myri_SN]

It's clear you don't belong to the PC gaming community, for 'round twenty years, the dungeon has been the closed circle of folks into roleplaying, at a convention or online.

i get the impression that as soon as someone sends me a message and i do not tell himin detail what master does to me when we play and switch my cam on i get told that 'i'm male and a fake'.

it seems a lot of people who wander around online think that bdsm only exists in chatrooms....

[Silke]

so is visiting old castles, if the castle is still in good shape, at times there even is a subterranean chamber to admire, and I'm not talking about the wine cellar

if it's merely a ruin you can still let your imagination wander...

Oh YES, one of my favourite hobbies when I'm on vacation...I love castles! My imagination runs wild when I'm there, especially when they still have a decent dungeon in there and the tourguide tells some stories about what used to happen in the old times...before he leaves you to explore on your own with a smile...

i get the impression that as soon as someone sends me a message and i do not tell himin detail what master does to me when we play and switch my cam on i get told that 'i'm male and a fake'.

Lol, yup, happened to me more times than not. I got the impression that it's an easy way to save the troll's ego to call someone who doesn't fall for their games a fake. It used to bother me when I was new to the online BDSM community, but now that I know a bit more - it just makes me laugh like hell and press the ignore button.

[gagged_Louise]

Yeah, you do run into a number of fake masters, when you're trawling different s/m forums, the guys who will write to you as soon as you've made a few posts and indicated you're a masochist, and introduce themselves as "very experienced and strict master", start calling you slave instantly etc.
On another forum I got in touch with this guy who sent me a questionnaire of my tastes, limits and wishes - bet he did that for all the people he contacted - and within a week he was asking me to rig my webcam (I didn't have one at the time, recently got one and am learning to use it) so he could order me around for hours.. I was more into exchanging fantasies and roleplay, but he went for the kill and when there was a two-day break in the mail exchange he sent me a mail. asked for explanations and then "sentenced" me to some outrageous punishments and then to write him a report of what it had felt like.

The next day I wrote a fake horny report on how the treatment had turned out and then pulled the plug on the poor man, I just felt "I don't have time for this kind of guy now". Haven't met any of that kind on this forum though, that's nice.

[Silke]

The next day I wrote a fake horny report on how the treatment had turned out and then pulled the plug on the poor man, I just felt "I don't have time for this kind of guy now".

Lol, he deserved it - good job!

Haven't met any of that kind on this forum though, that's nice.

Well, I've seen a few come and go, but the community outs them pretty soon and most just disappear after a VERY short time, lol.

[Lee Boudine]

I used to fantasize about me and my brothers or friends from school being held captive by pirates or terrorists, and, being the only girl, being chosen as the one to be tortured in order to extract from us information about treasure or such.
In my fantasies, I would never volunteered but did not struggle much either. I imagined myself enduring floggings, dunkings, suspension, crucifixion, keelhauling and all maner of torture with nary a whimper.
I was a very well read child, and even though I did not get my hands on a copy of "The Story of O" until age 14, I had smuggled "My secret garden" and "The Hite Report" out of the public library by age seven or eight. Only when I got older (11 or 12) did a religious or sexual theme enter my fantasies.

Dominate ! DOMINATE FEMALES ! I guess most adolescent boys are attracted to girls. It was WWII when I first ejaculated and there was propaganda about Japs and Gestapo Germans abusing women to get confessions. It is a fantasy theme that has entertained me ever since. Remember the old 'mens' mags' with bound cuties on the cover ? Graphic stimulation !

Instead of a pirate, my fantasy is a interrogator behind the bright light watching the attractive female suspect strip.......................

[Asia]

I think I'm typical in this area. Priests, SS Waffen and Gestapo rape-love-hate relationship for their pleasure not confessions, gang raped by group of strangers, being choked and beaten during a rape by two men with weapons while my imaginary bf (I was about 7-ish when this fantasy 1st occurred and no r/l bf *sobs*) was forced to watch and unable to help. While all of these are reoccuring fantasies and I still have them, I guess the ultimate and theme underlying them is being watched and photographed while in a vulnerable state.

With women and BDSM fantasies- it's always about the SS, 'her' sat on a chair wearing her Waffen uniform and large dildo and me being forced to fuck her while she holds my neck and bites my nipples while other SS women soldiers watch on and laughing, taking turns to slap my face, spit at me and hold my hips to keep me grinding down on to the dildo.

Oh yeah - I fantasise about making soft, delicate, agonisingly, beautiful love as well by the way *highlights this so as not to sound too much of a pervert - smiles*
Asia
xxx

[Timberwolf]

I didn't have very many bondage or D/s fantasies when I was younger. But reading over sections of this thread it's occued to me that when I was 13 or 14, I had a fantasy about a girl who was a classmate of mine. I wanted to take her out into the woods, we'd get naked, begin making love... and then I'd tie her to a tree, and go on making love to her and taking her body for my pleasure. Around that same age I also recall having several fantasies about being a sort of on-call love slave who's duty was to pleasure this insanely beautiful woman however she wanted me to, and that was probably the first FemDom fantasy I had, though I didn't know jack about kink at the time.

I'd certainly never heard of the term bongade, or BDSM, or D/s at that time and had no clue what I was onto, and I wouldn't really discover what those thigns were for years after. Most of my adolescent fantasies were more or less "vanilla" material.

I'd totally forgotten about that but reading over some of this here reminded me of it. That's the first tangeble sexaul bondage fantasy I can recall, and both my first "Dom" and "sub" fantasies that I can think of.

[Dundee]

I think I'm typical in this area. Priests, SS Waffen and Gestapo rape-love-hate relationship for their pleasure not confessions, gang raped by group of strangers, being choked and beaten during a rape by two men with weapons while my imaginary bf (I was about 7-ish when this fantasy 1st occurred and no r/l bf *sobs*) was forced to watch and unable to help. While all of these are reoccuring fantasies and I still have them, I guess the ultimate and theme underlying them is being watched and photographed while in a vulnerable state.

With women and BDSM fantasies- it's always about the SS, 'her' sat on a chair wearing her Waffen uniform and large dildo and me being forced to fuck her while she holds my neck and bites my nipples while other SS women soldiers watch on and laughing, taking turns to slap my face, spit at me and hold my hips to keep me grinding down on to the dildo.

Oh yeah - I fantasise about making soft, delicate, agonisingly, beautiful love as well by the way *highlights this so as not to sound too much of a pervert - smiles*
Asia
xxx

Asia!
You dirty little girl I better change my AV to Stalin instead and put on my best Ruskie accent. I can't think of mine now after reading all this, I'm a bit hot and bothered under the collar. I need a large, STIFF drink

[agp_millie]

Dear Asia,
i have a strong empathy with you, except all mine were older (and a cpl. x younger) brothers molesting me and sister (younger) .. But gave me a serious belief and became addicted to male Protein.

Left home at 15 straight into the arms of my subsequent worst nightmare .. fantasy? Never sure when it's real. Anyway, with my happy, conted Farmer's wife and mom of a few, i enjoy fantasising (whatever) on line. Probably the opposite way round for potential rapists?

*Hugs*
milly_mooe(s) a lot.

ps. As you will see, my skool teecher was right!

[IndigoBon]

I've always had kidnaping fantasies, even before I really understood that they turned me on sexually.... I remember being younger, and looking at the back of a movie box at the video store. There were two kids my age (about ten at the time) tied up with tape gags over their mouths. I stared at them in facination and deep down wanted to be in that situation myself. I used to close myself in my closet and pretend that I was being kept there against my will. I'd sit there for a long time, playing over the situation in my mind..... I also remember wrapping myself up tightly in a blanket (an early attempt at what I now realize to be my interest in mummification) and then I'd climb up on the bed or back in the closet. As time went on, I started having fantasies about being kidnapped and then starting some sort of relationship with my kidnapper. Being frightened, but eventually coming to identify with him. It took awhile before the fantasies became overtly sexual, but they were always there. Now they've moved into fantasies where I'm kidnapped and trained as a slave, used only for the pleasure of whomever has taken me. Being tied in unlimited ways and forced to do things that humiliate me to no end...My initial fantasies also always contained men, but have recently included women as well.....

Indigo...

[IndigoBon]

Not to mention Buttercup spends an awful lot of the first half of the movie tied up and blindfolded...

My obscure movie moment that led to endless fantasies was in "Young Sherlock Holmes". It's been a while, but as i remember it Young Sherlock and Watson come up against an Egyptian cult who are kidnapping young girls and sacrificing them to their gods. The method of sacrifice involved drugging the girl to subdue her, dressing her up in a sexy little Egyptian princess/slave costume and wrapping her up tight like a mummy (with a great closeup of the fear in her eyes where she starts to come to as the last bandage is wrapped around her head). She was then put in a sarcophogus and, as she struggled and screamed in her bondage, the sarcophogus was filled with molten wax - killing her and preserving her at the same time. All this is of course done in an underground temple setting with lots of men watching and chanting.

Sometimes it amazes me what they put in kid's films.

I still remember those scenes!!! I remember wishing to be that girl....tied up and frightened..... I would love to see that again....Thank you for reminding me of that wonderful, tight bondage scene!

Indigo...

[LikelySuspect]

I've had very few fantasies, sexually, my whole life, that weren't bdsm related. The first one i remember was me being tied and bound in the middle of a hallway at school, with people walking past, who were allowed to touch me any way they wanted. lots of them said nasty things and humiliated me. the rest just forced me to moan and squirm in front of teachers and the like... in fact... i still fantasize about things like that...

[slavescout74]

When I first reached pubert, I used to fantasize that I was captured by A german troop, was tortured for information, but would not co-operate, finally in frustration, they gave up and were going to kill me. One of the soldiers was given permission to torture me to death.
That summer I was almost gang-raped in real life, as they say, real rape is about as much fun as going through the windshield. However, after the incident was over, I had fantasies that they actually went through with the act, abusing me until I co-operated.
I used to dream that you could buy a real person cloned on the person of your choice for say $.25 from a machine so you could "own" and haave sex with anyone you wanted.

[slavescout74]

My first fantasies were that of being a soldier captured by the enemy, tortured for information and of course I don't break. In frustration,I am turned over to a sadistic soldier who is given permission to torture me to death. Another fantasy setting is that a delivery boy of some sort notices I am home alone, he breaks in, works me over and rapes me.

[goalt]

Earliest one I can think of is being arrested/captured and stripped. I'd be taken to a prison/facility, where all the prisoners were naked. We'd be forced to do various kinds of labor (mining, etc). Interestingly, this also involved a punishment/torture pretty similar to the wooden horse: the tieing of me such that my weight was on my pussy, which rested on a ridge. This was certainly before I knew about BDSM.

[slavescout74]

Another fantsy I had was being tied to a forced fucking machine, (this was over 30 years ago) I'm always ahead of my time where it doesn't matter.

[Arria]

I have been known since early childhood to be a spoilsport at certain games because I enjoyed the act of getting caught ten times more than actually escaping or having found the perfect hiding-place *g*.
When I started fantasizing at the beginning of puberty, it always envolved me being chased, hunted down, taken to the ground etc. long before any "really sexual" elements came into it. I did not realize those fantasies as being erotic for a long time, I just thought myself odd :-)

Since then I know I enjoy to be overpowered physically (maybe one of the reasons why I married a 6ft 4 inch high man looking very much like a Viking, and being into BDSM of course *lol*).

Apart from that, it was of course Cowboys and Indians with me, me always ending up being tied to the stake, tortured and interrogated to get information out of me, which I did of course not give up... though if that was for the sake of my "comrades" or for the sake of the torturing being continued, I could not really tell.
From what I heard, at least the latter one is a very commonly shared early favourite by most submissives I have spoken to. *smiles again*

The final moment when my captors told me they would kill me as I did not yield to their methods and was therefore of no use to them, was one that aroused me deeply on another level - but it took many more years for me to put a name to that, also.

[deigja]

When I started fantasizing at the beginning of puberty, it always envolved me being chased, hunted down, taken to the ground etc. long before any "really sexual" elements came into it. I did not realize those fantasies as being erotic for a long time, I just thought myself odd :-)


Apart from that, it was of course Cowboys and Indians with me, me always ending up being tied to the stake, tortured and interrogated to get information out of me, which I did of course not give up... though if that was for the sake of my "comrades" or for the sake of the torturing being continued, I could not really tell.
From what I heard, at least the latter one is a very commonly shared early favourite by most submissives I have spoken to. *smiles again*

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Arria I´m with you.. early Fantasies of being chased and also the cowboy and indians theme.
Now looking back I can identify those scenes as beeing erotic Fantasies, I could not at that time though..

As to my first fantasies.. I mostly endet up tied to a tree, sometimes gagged, sometimes blindfoldet...
When I started Masturbation at the age of.. perhaps 13, don´t remember clearly, I soon started playing with tape also, tying up my legs or just taping my mouth shut...

[boundbyu]

very very nice thread

when i was vanilla my dreams were of being a secret agent and the only way they could get the answers from me was to use water tourture. lol and this was before i knew about the lifestyle.

boundbyu

[steelish]

My fantasy as a young girl was actually a reality. However, I don't want to give too much away because I've submitted the experience in the June 2008 story contest. The title is Em Kay's Transformation and it is an explanation of why I ended up wanting to be dominated. It involves the neighborhood boys I grew up with.

I'm not sure when Nikita will post it though. I'm dying to see what kind of reaction it will get because even after all these years, reliving the experience during the writing of it was HOT HOT HOT!

[MissElizabeth87]

My earliest fantasies were actually about other girls... I used to fantasize about spanking other girls until they cried... or about directing a bunch of guys to 'do dirty things to' (I was never very specific...limited imagination) another girl.

The earliest one involving guys only involved kissing them. Yeah... boring.

[newslave]

I remember twisting the sheets in my bed as I thought about the olden days and how I would be held captive and bound waiting for my man to come and save me...except for the fact that he only untied me after he was done...

I also remember tons of sexually charged fantasies where I was unable to move for the imaginary bindings on my bed - It wasn't until I dscovered this life a few months ago that I made the connection between here and my childhood, though. Plenty of my time as an adolescent was spent wrapping in that world though!

[Curiouslittleangel14]

My earliest fantasies were of being a slave to some wealthy exotic prince amongst other slaves who were hot and of being raped in a dark alley but an unknown dude.