You know I seriously avoided this thread because it brought up too many bad memories for me.
I know that my brother and your Master are two separate entities and we both have had different experiences from our losses, but it was too painful to even respond to you.
I know what you are going through to a certain degree, I think that while we both have different pains, the pain is still the same regardless.
I just wanted to say that I am thinking of you, I feel very badly for your loss.
I know how it feels, even though it is different for you than it is for me.
I would love nothing more than to move on and lessen the pain I feel, but it is so very difficult to do.
When my sister passed away, someone recommended a book "The Pain of Bereavement, You'll Get Over It", I didn't purchase it then, but I have now. It is supposed to be a good book to learn how to get over the raw painful anger that you might be feeling.

We all greive at different times, in different ways, I am glad you can find solace here.
I wish you only the best of things to come, you deserve that.