Nightstriker,
I was much too hostile to your response than I should have been. I want to apologize and explain why this task was so hard for me. I have suffer child abuse as well as beatings and rapes from my first husband. All the people who have hurt my daughter and I have been the ones who we should have been able to trust. While you guys say to listen to your gut instinct when determining where a task can go I can’t listen to mine.
This task immediately had be thinking about how my husband isolated me from my family and friends before he started to beat me. The thought that I might let myself fall into a trap where I would be controlled like that again was frightening. I let it happen once and have always feared that it could happen again. I have spent my life making sure I was never in a position where that could occur. That was my gut reaction and I fought with it all night.
I knew my master did not mean for me to feel this way and it was not his fault that I had this reaction. Even if I couldn’t have completed it. I knew he would have supported my decision. It is his patience and understanding that made me try to complete this task for him. So in completing this task I was able take back some things that where stolen from me along time ago.
It was extremely difficult to perform this task with the demons from my past chewing on my ass but with my trust in my master and Ruby’s help the little bastards ended up starving. The fact that I am stubborn as hell and can’t stand to let my past direct my life is also a big help.
What I learned about myself from this task. Besides my family I keep to myself. In truth I put myself in isolation. It felt safe. No friends meant that I had less people I had to worry about hurting me. Please realize I am not a social creature by nature so this wasn’t hard to bear. So my big lesson was that everyone needs friends to help work through their issues and I must thank you all for your support. Sharing yourselves and experiences on the forum had helped me open up.

Ruby and Lord Chuck,
You two have especially given me the strength to stand my ground and face my fears. Confirming that my reactions are normal and that if I need help I can come to you has been a great comfort. It has kept me from running and hiding when things get hard.

Master,
I must thank you again. When we first meet you asked me about my friends and you were shocked when you learned I didn’t have any. I think you were even more shocked that I like it that way. As you already know while I will answer direct questions I do not freely supply information about myself unless it is in the guise of virtual Jade or commanded to do so.
I have reviewed your previous task assignments. The majority of them involve me sharing my feelings and myself with others on the forum. I didn’t realize my lack of friends was such a big concern for you. I am guessing you realized I would need them if I was to succeed in over coming some of my issues and the truth is you were right. I would have run away along time ago without their support.

MY REWARD
You have know idea how excited and honored I was by my master’s gift. And wet. I just wanted to share my present. With my master’s permission of course. In the Personal Photography.