Quote Originally Posted by sullied
I am not sure what I felt during that night in respect to whether or not she was mine. I can say this though, we had talked about scening before the party and maybe about doing something there. It came to crunch time and I couldn't do it or wasn't interested in doing it any more. Giving it more thought now, I think maybe I felt I'd wimped out or something (other words escape me right now). OK, I think maybe now I'm ready to admit I was jealous. I was jealous because he was doing something I wanted to do, but wimped out of doing, I think anyways...what an interesting way for me to interpret jealousy.

-Sullied
I think this is why both the sight and the sound effected you so much...
I'm glad to see you making emotional progress through the pain.