I have had rape fantasies ever since childhood. Ever since I saw those 70's TV actresses getting chloroformed or tied and gagged, I've been turned on by the idea of "taking" a woman. Lynda Carter as Wonder Woman, Charlie's Angels, Lindsey Wagner as The Bionic Woman and Angie Dickenson in Police Woman...I loved seeing them get captured.

I've been fortunate to find a few girlfriends over the years who have indulged me in my fantasy. When I was in my 20's, I lived with my gf Linda. She was the best roleplayer. I used to love grabbing my "victim" as she walked down the hall, forcing her into the bathroom, and holding her in front of the large mirror with my hand over her mouth. The room was dark, lit only by a nightlight, but I could see the reflection of her wild-eyed frightened look, feel her tense, lovely body struggling. Unfortunately for Linda...her struggles "happened" to rub against my bulging pants and made me even hotter. I loved how terrified and desperate she looked as I manhandled her and bound her hands behind her.

But the most arousing part of our sessions had to be her sounds....muffled sounds she'd make as I held her mouth or forced a rag into it and tied it tightly behind her head, squeals into that gag as my hand spanked and groped her tight, perfect ass. What an incredibly exciting feeling.

One happy discovery I made with Linda was that when she moaned and screamed in orgasm during our rape roleplay, the gag made her sound forelorned and helpless. Sometimes it even made her sound like my roughness was hurting her...although she assured me that she was enjoying the whole experience intensely.

In reality, it was really just very athletic sex with some bondage and acting added to it. But acting out fantasies made for many incredible orgasms for both of us. Occassionally, I'd torment her, too. I'd tie her up and march her around the home...I'd blindfold her and then she'd never know when where the next spank would impact or if I'd twist her nipples cruelly. I would squeeze them so hard sometimes that veins on my forearms would pop out like a weight lifter's. She loved that, too, since she'd nursed children. Her nipples had become less sensitive and she found the harsh nipple punishment arousing. Bonus for me.

She trusted me, and I knew her limits. She never had to use a safeword (which would have simply been to say my name...after all, I was playing an "intruder."). Let me just say, I recommend acting out those roleplays...a burglar, a fake pizza delivery guy let in by a naive woman, a phone repair man who binds the woman with telephone cord...go for it! I just have a few pieces of advice: learn the limits, use a safeword (especially one that can be understood when gagged--like "computer"), and DON'T TELL YOUR FRIENDS.

Find out if she doesn't like elbow bondage, anal or force oral. Learn what sounds and dialogue he doesn't like (for me...I don't like the victim to "switch" and be turned on by the "rape," just stay in character).

And keep the details of the session private...just between those involved. The last thing I needed to know was that Linda bragged about me to her girlfriends. It made me less inclined to try other scenarios and becoming the neighborhood deviant. I've never really raped anyone...I just get into roles with a consenting partner.

Doc Holidaze