This is a big share for me. Wonder why I do it, is it exhibitionism or letting go of something through sharing??

I had a long relationship where strangulation (of me) was a big part. After the relationship was over (through his death), for a long time, I always had to strangle myself when I played by myself to be able to cum. It's quite dangerous, I don't recommend it. No longer a necessity, but I still crave it... and hope to be able to include it in my current relationship in time, probably in a more controlled manner.