Hello louise and congratulations on such excellent English.

As has already been said there are many people here in the same situation as you, and whilst there is no magical answer it is always comforting knowing you are not alone. Most people seem to focus on getting the most of out of their vanilla marriage in real life, whilst using on line as an outlet, sometimes just as a reassurance that they are not mad, and sometimes as a way of having a virtual kinky relationship.

But don't rush into anything, you are with friends here, who both understand and care.

cariad