Being fat and ugly? - It's probably just due to getting older. When I was in my twenties I was 47kg (about 8 stone). Now I'm in my forties, I'm 107kg (about 17 stone). I'm 5' 3". In general, at least in developed countries like Australia and the States, people get fatter and uglier as they grow older, especially women.

Would I like to be slim and beautiful again? Sure, and it's not impossible - there are plenty of 40 and 50 year olds who look great. Do I want it enough to do anything about it? No. How do I know this? Because, if I did, I would be 8 stone, not 17 stone.

The thing is with people like you, whoreman, you're only interested in how people look, which to me makes you superficial and empty. Not someone I want to know. Most overweight women probably realise the advantages. Being "fat and ugly" weeds out anyone other than guys who are genuine people, who are prepared to see beyond the flesh to the person inside. And chemistry doesn't have eyes. Take a look around you. There are any number of squat ugly men with slim beautiful model like female partners, and even more gorgeous looking guys with wives/girlfriends who look the size of the back of a bus.

You can idealise about a model like woman all you like, and if you find one who wants to be with you, and is committed to the same empty ideals as you are, good luck to both of you. But my guess is you're going to miss out on a whole lot of potentially great, kinky, relationships, just because you automatically exclude the majority of the population (at least in Oz and the States).