coming back quietly, on bare feet

Hello everybody,

I'm Laila and I have been a member of this community before - never the most active but I have been around. I used to get phases of disgust and fear when it comes to my sexuality - and this is why I tended to disappear again.

Recent events though made-minded people to talk to. Friendly, non-judgemental people who understand.

I have felt submissive since my early teens but I had never really desired to be owned, or I had feared it too much. I still do - except that I met the one man I could imagine belonging to. And he wanted me to be his slave... until I screwed up and wanted more than he could give - love, a relationship - and now we are just best friends again. Or rather he is a best friend and I love and worship him silently, and play the best friends because that is what he wants me to be.
Pathetic? Maybe... probably. But it brought me back here, and it brought me much deeper in touch with my submissiveness. Made me think about it more... and maybe that at least is a good thing.

I'm happy to be back anyway.
*waves around*

Welcome back Luv

welcome to the community!

In everyones life comes the one person you love and desrie but seems that they cannot have. You have expenced the closeness of the relationship you wanted and now are denied that closeness. So now you have to decide if its time to move on. If you leave you lose any relationship at all. Staying means you are still friends and maybe some day he will change his mind and want that same closeness again.

You are the only one that can decide what the relationship is worth to you. If you are willing to accept it on his terms for now in hopes to see it through then do so. If its all to much then make peace with it and move on. Either way I wish you the best and hope you find the happyness you seek.

Daumon

Welcome back, Laila.

hey there, welcome back

Welcome back, enjoy your time here.

Welcome back from a Texas sub who's also learning how to be a good sub

Hello and Welcome back!

welcome back to the communtiy and let us know if you need a person to talk to, when it comes to asking questions, we are full of answers

hello and welcome

Hi hun :wave: Welcome back to the Community!

Welcome back, Laila!

Glad you are back! I am glad you feel more in touch with your submissiveness, and I hope you are able to grow to value that side of your sexuality. I also hope you are able to find the One to complete you.

Good luck and remember, the journey is often more important than the destination.

Sir W

:wel back.

It's hard when you want something at a different level than your partner. But sometimes it's more about the journey than the destination and this is a great place to find travel partners.

Hello Laila and welcome to the forums

hi and welcome

Hello and :wel back to the Forums

Welcome back - I hope you find what you are searching for

Welcome to the site, hope you find it both fun and informative.Good luck in your journey

Aw thanks everybody! I feel so touched by your warm welcome and I was so shy about it all. Ok still am - but a lot less now :)

wellcome back to the site

we are so very happy to have you here, the forums are full of great information, as well as having a very nice personels section and chatroom

feel free to pm any of the staff or myself with conserns or questions, we are more than willing to lend a hand

hope to see more of you soon
have lots of fun exploring the site
hugs and kissess
denu