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Please learn how to write a coherent sentence before you blog. Yes, I realize that some of you grammatical morons and spelling impaired twits have a huge following. Sadly, your following is loaded with morons and twits.

Just because your writing is viewed as profound doesn't mean it is - it just means the idiots and twits don't understand you. They may look up to you and place you on a throne, expounding on your wonderous and profound statements, but being king of the idiots is not ...

Im not mad; i just dont know wha to do. I have post a rough darft of a story i have worked on for a long time. I asked on the thread for a reply about my story. I know i sound selfcentered on this but i just feel sad about it. I mean if its bad then tell me its bad, if its good then tell. I just feel hurt that no one has even posted a hate post on it. Im not mad, I dont feel i need praise ( i presonaly feel the story it self is weak; but, I feel it can be fixed) . I just want to know how people ...

So, i joined here in July.. baby steps i promised myself.. reading and learning i wanted to do. Integrate the knowledge from here and go to munches.. sorta find the balance of what i wanted, what i was searching for.
And yet .. nothing happened. yes i started to speak with some people, thought about getting more serious with one, but it did not happen. i was not for him. maybe i'm getting anxious maybe i need more patience. Maybe things are simply not meant to be for me. Perhaps i'm simply ...

Of late, I've noticed I have even less time to spend on the things I want than I do money. Considering the current state of the economy and that's a bit of a surprise.

Which brings to mind a question I've had in my head for years. Why is it called "spending time"? Time is not remotely tangible. You can't sell it as a commodity and no matter where you look people are running out of time. At the same time they are running out of time they continue to spend time on other things. ...

Here I analyzed my silliness. No sense in it. Just laugh at me.

I am so happy right now. Who knew that living alone could make me feel so lighthearted? I haven't been this happy since.......well, since the last time i lived alone. *grins* I guess i'm just not the marrying type. That's okay though, a good friends has pointed out to me that it doesn't mean i'm broken it just means that i'm me. And that is by no means a bad thing. It is so wonderful to bo surrounded by friends and family who want nothing more from me than for me to just be me. I am taking this ...

Was doing some work preparing a environmental programme and found this. Nothing to do with BDSM but i like it.

Chief Seattle 1885

How can you buy the sky?
How can you own the rain and the wind?

My mother told me,
Every part of the earth is sacred to our people.
Every pine needle. Every sandy shore.
Every mist in the pine woods.
Every meadow and humming insect.
All are holy in the memory of are people.
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"Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future."

Sometimes you feel so hurt by the actions of another that you lose sight of what you need most to heal that pain... forgiveness. Ive spent months feeling anguish over someone that I cared so much for. I have questioned everything I knew about this person and myself. I beat myself up. I doubted myself, doubted him. I have cried way too many tears and hated myself for that too. I have damned him ...

Sunday night here, just after 22:45 and my mind won't let me rest, I've been waiting all day for a very important e-mail, hoping and praying that when it comes it'll be 'good news' but here I still sit, waiting & hoping.
What I am hoping for probably sounds crazy, I know what folk out there are going to scream (stop?) when they know that I am seriously contemplating giving up what little security I've got (roof over my head etc) for living life as someone's personal slave in London... ...

In this blog entry I described my first and last online punishment session. Now I gave up the silly idea totally.