One day 15 years ago I was watching a movie called I Spit on Your Grave. Instead of being appalled i was turned on by the fact that she was being used. Something about being bound and forced has always titillated me but I never understood these feelings, considering I am very dominant in most of my life. One day I found a man that opened my eyes to the "Life" But unfortunately at that time I was not ready to receive or "come out of the closet". That was 5 years ago. I find it is a need now that i can no longer ignore,or live without. The door is open and I am ready. I have vanilla relationships nothing serious but I find them so unfullfiling and not because i don't like their company. I also long to be part of a community where my "kinks" are accepted.