[QUOTE=icey;730545]im sorry but what do endorphins have to do with it? yes you could argue it's addictive but only in the sense that you want it to happen again the next time you play or when it's happening and you dont want it to stop .we've probably all been there lol..but that doesnt mean that you're going to go back to someone simply to get that high again! im totally lost with that line of reasoning./QUOTE]

*takes icey by the hand and leads her to endorphin land.* lol

Whilst I'm sure you understand that wonderful high that happens when endorphins are released, you seem not to understand why you would simply return to someone just to re-experience that high.

Perhaps it's becaue you're in a relationship and that high is there whenever you need it. lol Good Doms (not saying that the OP's Dom was/is good or bad) are few and far. I have spoken with subs that will return to the scene of the crime, knowing how detrimental it is for them emotionally and physically, because they need that sensation and know that person can offer it to them. Albeit, it almost always comes with regrets.