Submissives & Slaves: Who am I? How did I get here?

[lucy]

Every time i was entertaining fantasies they had a submissive/humiliating or just downright nonconsentual subtext.
Let's be careful here and not confuse nonconsensual fantasies, like rape, with consensual bdsm submission. There is a difference.

Of course you're completely right. I am fully aware that there is a huge difference between lying in bed and entertain fantasies of a nonconsentual nature and willingly and on my own choice submit to another person.
I utterly detest nonconsensuality and when i am on the story board, the tag "nc" usually keeps me from clicking on the link to the full story. I tried to write stories with a nonconsentual plot, but found out i couldn't do it (however, i realized that stories with the "nc" code get much more attention)
Still, those fantasies are within me. And they're a great disturbance, but i think that's fodder for another thread.