Just wanted to give everyone an update.. I'm still with the same Dom/lover.. I say, "Dom/Lover" because it isn't 100% a dom/sub relationship. much of the time it is though. Things are actually going GREAT! Better than great, even. I wanted to post this, because learning to be a "good sub" is a scarey thing.. for beginners, like me. It is very scarey putting your life and decisions, and your body at the complete control of another person. What I did was fail to trust. Now, granted, trust is something that is earned... but, I still had to do my part. You know, give a little, get a little.

What I've learned is that this was a HUGE test of our relationship. In fact, many other tests have come since then, as well. when I gave over my trust, completely, on this situation, and obeyed him... he then made the decision that "shaving completely down there" wasn't the best idea for me... it ended up being "his decision".. but, he made the decision based on what was best for me. See.. it was all about giving that decision over to him... and he didn't let me down... (BTW... I've learned to enjoy the landing pad look..

Our relationship has really progressed... it is now one of trust.. MUTUAL trust, that is. He trusts me, and I trust him. He is always in charge.. always in control... if I disagree, I can present my case.. and he decides. And his decisions are a good ones..

So, I'm learning... I'm learning what it means to be truly submissive, and this has been a wonderful learning lesson.

I am so glad that everyone put their advice here.. because it provided me with enough information and confidence to walk away if I needed too. Come to find out, I haven't needed to... But, I've learned so very much from you all..

Thanks again.