Thank you for your thoughts, replies, and support. I think I've decided not to continue on about this problem though. I have made some decisions internally. They include, not moving forward with master/slave -with him anymore...just slowing things down and letting them be more vanilla. I am taking back control of my life in small ways. He seems unable to handle things so I will. Precious ~ you are remembering correctly. As for looking for another Dom...I'm not right now. I don't know that I ever will again.

He mentions that I seem distant, but I'm not disagreeable, actually quite the opposite. It's easier to be with him now that I am detaching. I think releasing myself from the submissive/slave position allows me to make better decisions regarding him. *click, engage brain* I have learned A LOT about myself, relationships and what dominance and submission really should/should not be. All of you have helped me along the way and I continue to learn......