I was playing 'tie up' games when I was five, with me the one tied up and at someone's complete mercy- I credit the original Batman and Superman TV series with perverting me. (Naturally, these were fantasy games). I sometimes went to bed pretending I was tied up, and when I was very 'naughty' I'd take off my pajamas and be naked and tied up- and I didn't know a thing about sex until sex education started in 6th grade. When I hit adolescence my fantasies were still about bondage, but with a split as to dom/sub. I think I was afraid that being submissive was ‘feminine’ and rebelling against it. Today I’m probably 95% submissive in my sexual orientation, but that other 5% of the time I just want to strap down and ravish some wonderful, struggling lady and make her mine.