Quote Originally Posted by TomOfSweden View Post
I could argue the exact oposite. Considering what death is, (ie eternal peace) we could say being calm and quiet could be our longing for death while experiencing pain in any form is bieing more alive.

I'm just thinking aloud now so don't hold me to this. But it is a very interesting subject. Lacan argued that all humans main driving force in life was the will to die. Lacan. He makes a good case.
i agree with Tom.....for me...cutting was always a way for me to focus. when i get depressed...i get very very unfocused so to say. it's wierd because it's the same for when i get really hyper. i'm hypomanic. i have very extreme highs. i have pretty severe ADD at times. cutting myself helped me focus, brought me down to a normal level.

but cutting wasn't really all the sexual for me. now breathe play is a huge turn on for me. and i think that's more because of the adrenaline rush. breathe play is very intense....it's not like cutting. cuz it's easy to control cutting. but when you haveing someone squeezing the breathe out of you......and you can't stop them....the adrenaline rush is intense. and when they let go........oh it's a flood of air and wetness, lol.

but isn't there such a thing as a snuff fetish? i've seen snuff stories and snuff films.....well never watched a film but heard of them. isn't that a fetish for killing someone or watching someone get killed?