Thoughts of death aren't uncommon during bloodletting (with a knife), but it has nothing to do with why we do it. As you can guess, I have a horrible obsession with vampires, so when I watch him lapping at the blood with his tongue or sucking on my skin, in my head sometimes I like to fantasize about him drinking all of my blood until I slowly start to die. Now, of course I don't want that to actually happen lol. I think I've just read too many vampire novels, and the attraction for that is because it's such a romantic image of death being portrayed.

Another thought that just occurred to me that sort of has to do with the "how far would you go?" thread, is that I desperately want to please him, and I remember thinking before of how I wanted him to take more (blood) until he had as much as he wanted and not have to worry about my health, even though it could result in me passing out or dying. It was an incredibly stupid thought, but I think crazy things sometimes.

As for the cutting itself, it's not about the possibility of death at all, it's about the pain and being able to FEEL something so... good. But I also agree with what previous posters said about trust.

With breath play though, it's the opposite of what I just said lol. It IS about the possibility of death... and the fantasy of that. But that's because for us it usually goes along with a rape RP or something.

Oh, and did I mention we both have a fascination with necrophilia? lol