a little confession

I wanna confess something about myself, I haven't even told my best friend
I have dreams and fantasies of death and extreme torturer..
Confessions

Meeting a tall dark handsome male( who is really a vampire) who seduces me and leads me into mansion to fall victim to him … having him feed on me for nutriment and life… as he steals my mortal life….. Only to rise again to hunt and feed on other humans as I as bring new victims for him….

In searching the net over the last few yrs I have found several stories that has been outstanding and lead to me having more dreams….. Honestly… how can I be a victim if I am willing to be nutriment for the vampires….I ach to feel the life being sucked out of me…..to be part of the dark underworld
Is this sick ...it makes me wet
I have even read stories of execution…. Women being order to be executed….being stripped nude and hung until death…..(….that I want to be hung…..)
I had at one time some short clips/films of women being hung….
I know they were fake and they were not the best quality but I loved them… anyone know where I can download other clips/ videos

Am I a sick bitch or what?

wanting to hear from others.....

Hey! No one is a sick bitch... unless you crave hearing it... in which case... ;)



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Fantasy rocks. Nothing to worry about, the vampire craze is growing. If fangs embedded in your neck make you wet... I say get soaked!!

No I do not believe you are a sick bitch.

Dreams you are having suggest to me that you have some emptinesses that need filling and that your sexuality seems to be threatening to you as much as it is titillating to you as much as it is making you wet it is also something you have been taught is wrong/sick/whatever other term you want to use. It is none of these. Yes, you could allow things to go too far and that would be all of those things. But certainly you can continue to read and masturbate if that is what happens to turn you on and help you sleep and so forth. My guess is that what would help you most would be two things - not in any special order. 1 - to get hooked up with somebody in a relationship where you are allowed to be honest and where somebody you can trust implicitly is into some of the lifestyle too. 2- find a group, online or in person (the latter might work better but is understandably a little more difficult to find and a little more risky) of other subs and other fantacizers and let it out. yes, let it out in the open. girl, come out of your closet with people who can accept it - but no do not try to come out to people who would be aghast.

I hope this helps. And if you cannot find the groups or the online resources or whatever, post to me privately and I will help you find what you want and need.

GypsieCowboy

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Originally Posted by little Peaches

I wanna confess something about myself, I haven't even told my best friend
I have dreams and fantasies of death and extreme torturer..
Confessions

Meeting a tall dark handsome male( who is really a vampire) who seduces me and leads me into mansion to fall victim to him … having him feed on me for nutriment and life… as he steals my mortal life….. Only to rise again to hunt and feed on other humans as I as bring new victims for him….

In searching the net over the last few yrs I have found several stories that has been outstanding and lead to me having more dreams….. Honestly… how can I be a victim if I am willing to be nutriment for the vampires….I ach to feel the life being sucked out of me…..to be part of the dark underworld
Is this sick ...it makes me wet
I have even read stories of execution…. Women being order to be executed….being stripped nude and hung until death…..(….that I want to be hung…..)
I had at one time some short clips/films of women being hung….
I know they were fake and they were not the best quality but I loved them… anyone know where I can download other clips/ videos

Am I a sick bitch or what?

wanting to hear from others.....

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No, you aren't sick. I have fantasies like this all the time. I love reading erotic horror and am hooked on the "Hot Blood" series. This kind of stuff repels and fascinates me at the same time and I find myself very drawn to the darkness and torture. So you're not alone in this! And remember: just because you fantasize about this it does not mean that you want it to happen to you IRL or that you would go murder someone.

I used to work in a lab that made medical test kits. I loved the smell of blood and miss it very much now. I don't think this makes you sick or whatever you have been trained to think you are by society standards.

You´re not sick at all. I share the Vampire fetish with you (though mine ends with being bitten and sucked empty), and a lot of people I know do the same.
Having the fantasy of being tortured/killed is not that unusual, either. I´ll ask hubby for a few page recommendations (I am more into stories than films).

As long as you don´t take it to reality, there is no need to worry at all. Stop feeling ashamed or weird, it takes out all the fun. I agree that sharing your fantasies with likeminded people would help a lot (it helped ME a huge lot to realize that there were not only other people having the same fantasies as I, but were actually LIVING them with their partners! *lol*).

While I heard people say it´s no good to analyze too much, I like to analyze myself quite a bit, and came to think that this death issue is resembling complete and absolute submission. At least in my fantasies it is being done by the one who loves me, and I give my life as a gift.
(This will of course prevent it from happening, as he does not want to kill me, and I would not want him to go to prison for fulfilling my fantasies.)

Use your fantasies in your play; you would quite likely enjoy breath control a lot. Even if it is done by an experienced person, and you basically KNOW he will not REALLY kill you, it can be very scary and oh so hot :-)))

Yes, nothing wrong with fantasies being dangerous and kind of creepy and lustful at the same time. It's an outlet of your imagination, your inner self in a way, and not wishes that you'd really intend to come true. Just like Arria I feel very turned on sometimes by the thought of being tortured and mutilated, being made to dance for a brutal interrogator, shipped off to a slave market, flogged and sold, forced to rank public humiliation...

I remember when I was a kid I'd feel sorry sometimes because all the fun and colourful stuff that could have happened in ages gone by - peasants revolts, cities being sacked and burned, and the inhabitants sold as slaves, wonderful clothing, big white patches on the world map -.didn't happen anymore! Of course I wouldn't have wanted to be burnt on a stake and the like, but the idea is hauntingly powerful.

Oh, and here's a good woman hanging clip (from some Western film):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbsI5DnCLkU

OK, so the pages I got referred to are:

www.sickestsites.com
and
www.necrobabes.com

Beware. Some stuff on there is not very nice.

i have to agree.. i am not so much into the death aspect but the torture in my fantasies are totally cruel and prolonged over time to the point i am sure the victim wishes they were dead... i would never want half of it done to me in R/L...

and like you i will not share most of them but you are not sick having them.. I agree with Arria breath play can be fun and some mutilation if agreed upon before hand with someone you truly unconditionally trust .. or even more so the threat of it being done to you as i find the fear of something like that is where my highest turn on is...

Although i would never put myself in a position of possible death or suggest anyone else do it in fear of an accident... or a play gone to far.... or out of control in the heat of the moment...and it actually happening.. I myself feel that is going way to far and is totally unsafe..

Remember to always play safe .. check things out first ... ask questions about this to others that have experienced the same.. and make sure you trust the person.. TOTALLY.. If you ever feel the need to do anything like breath play .. mutilation.. or any other sort of rough play...

Just my opinion

hugs
snow

thank you for yourfeed back

thank you for sharing....I never thought about clips on that site.....thanks again